December 29, 2007
Merry Christmas
We are home. Actually, we've been home since Thursday night. We took two days to make the drive, since I haven't been feeling well. We were back in Baltimore by noon on Thursday, but dropped the kids with a friend and headed to the ER, where we spent the rest of the day.
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The good news is there is nothing life-threatening going on. The bad news is we have no idea what is going on. They gave me some IV fluids, a scrip to get the bleeding to stop and sent me home with instructions to take it easy until my follow-up next Thursday.
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I'm annoyed because I'm going to miss a Christmas party tonight and I really wanted to go. Plus, my house looks like a bomb went off, what with all the stuff that came back from Florida with us. I would like to unpack and get laundry done and get the house cleaned, but I fainted yesterday morning when I was cleaning up a mess made overnight by a sick kid. So, you know, life is GREAT these days. haha.
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The good news is my sense of humor is still intact and I'm not going crazy just yet.
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If you are so inclined, please continue to pray for me, my health especially. It is possible that what is going on right now is also thyroid-related, so my appointment at the end of January can't come fast enough as far as we are concerned.
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I hope you all had as nice a Christmas as we did (in spite of my being pretty sick).
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God Bless you.
December 15, 2007
I'm here....
Sorry to leave you hanging all week. I'm so touched by your concern and grateful for all your prayers. My doctor suspects that whatever is going on (not coming from my bladder, by the way, which is fantastic news) is related to my lack of cycles and I'm just having breakaway stuff. Pretty gross, but at least it doesn't seem to be anything to be concerned about. Not yet anyway. The end of January should bring more difinitive answers as that is when I see the specialist in Baltimore.
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So, we've been busy doing what you do when you're visiting family. We're visiting with family. We've spent a lot of time with Husband's grandparents, who are 89 and almost 89 years old. It is pretty sad how much they continue to decline between visits - they were more lucid in August. Grandfather gets emotional each evening when I take them home, which just makes me feel like dirt. I love them a whole lot and feel guilty that we live so far away. I know it can't be helped right now, but I do feel a tremendous sadness when I realize that this month may be our last together. On the other hand, they don't really have anything pressing health-wise, so they could last a few more years - but at what cost? They are already feeling lonely and annoyed at their lack of memory.
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I've spent some time with a friend here this week and my heart hurts for her and her family - she's got three almost-grown kids and they're having some issues with the kids. Her daughter is adopted and went through some things similar to what I did as a kid - although some things were absolutely worse than what I experienced. Mother and daughter are having a difficult time connecting with one another and things have gotten way out of hand. It is terribly sad. It makes me think even more that what I shall write about eventually is abuse and the effects it has on girls, in particular.
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This weekend, Husband's aunt has come up from Fort La-dee-da to see the girls. It's a four hour drive, so we are honored that she carved the time from her busy schedule to come see us. Tonight, I will be trying to reconnect with a longtime friend who has been in crisis for almost two years - so that should be real fun. Tomorrow, more visiting and then we're headed to Orlando for a mini-break with my mother. I'm really looking forward to our vacation within a vacation. It's a great way to get ready for Christmas - we'll be going to Epcot's Candlelight Processional and around to the Disney hotels to see the elaborate gingerbread creations.
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Well, I'm babbling on and this isn't terribly interesting, but I did want to update. I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend and finishing up your holiday preparations.
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God Bless!
December 10, 2007
Sorry about my absence
The girls and I are in Florida [husband returned to MD this morning after being with us for the weekend]. We've been enjoying the time with our family, particularly the great-grandparents.
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As our plane was preparing to land in Tampa, I was excitedly pointing out the areas where my in-laws live, my mom, and we even flew directly over my cousin's neighborhood, which was pretty neat, even though I couldn't pick out her house among the trees. Sally asked why I was smiling so big and was surprised when I said "It's just good to be home." It really is good to be home.
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I could use some prayers, though, as I'm having some weird and rather disturbing health issues. I happened to have an appointment already set for this afternoon, so I'm relieved to have a doctor checking me out this afternoon after the weirdness of the weekend. I'll let you know if there's anything to know, but let's just hope that I have an infection. I have a feeling, though, I'll need to see a specialist and I'm quite glad to have parental support during a time when I'm just feeling anxious. I haven't slept all weekend and it's really just making the whole thing worse, I suppose. Anyway.... Now that you're all worried... I might as well just say - I've had some bizarre bleeding and I initially thought it was "normal" stuff, but further observation shows it was probably from my bladder (kidney?). Due to the amount of blood, it could be quite a concern (or a really bad infection? which we are actually hoping for). [The other theory is that I've had another miscarriage that was oddly complete with no warning spotting, no afterward spotting... I have no reason to believe I was even pregnant - no evidence of ovulation in more than 2 years. But, my mother-in-law actually suggested that we might be relieved to find out that I was, in fact, pregnant. So, we'll see.] I'll keep you posted.
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Signing off for now, after sharing more than I'd planned. I can't seem to make myself delete it all, though, since I find that very specific prayers sometimes make me feel much better. So, I'm asking, please pray for me.
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Until later, God bless you.
